Watch for God, He always shows up.

As a Christian, during times of tragedy or fear, I’m sometimes asked the question ‘How could God let this happen?”  I think most Christians have faced this question at one time or another.

Most of the time I can have a great conversation and can answer friends’ questions while staying strong in my faith.

This weekend, I’ve been having a hard time answering this question.

How? How could this happen? How could God not intervene?
Children died. Children!

Then I looked down and saw this.

An excellent reminder for me

This little bracelet, that says “watch for God” sits on my wrist day in day out. It was given to Big during our church’s VBS program and he’s asked me to wear it since.

Sometimes, I forget that it’s even there, and other times I look down, see it, and remind myself that God can in fact be found in every situation.

So I began to think.

Where was God yesterday? Where?

He was in the teacher whose instinct it was to tell children she loved them while hiding in a closet. He was in the people of the community who spoke about supporting and loving each other through this tragedy. He was in Emilie Parker’s father who spoke so eloquently about love and forgiveness in the midst of his unimaginable pain.

He showed up in the best way He could.

Through love; love in people, in us, for each other.

I believe that the children that died are now with Him. And even though I can’t begin to imagine what such a loss would feel like, I am comforted in knowing that they are with Him. It’s what my faith helps me believe.

I am also comforted in knowing that He dwells in people who can put an end to this senseless violence. I pray that He will grant leaders wisdom and strength to put a plan in motion that will stop all of this.

I don’t pretend to understand the whys and hows of what happened in Connecticut. The truth is I don’t, I don’t understand any of it. But what I do know, is that one day God will right all the wrongs in the way that only He can.

You may not believe in the same things as I do, but whatever or whomever it is you believe in, draw yourself near to that and I hope you too can help find some peace during this time. I hope you too can see that there is good; that even in the midst of pain and hurt, some good shines through.

So as I continue about my day, and because it’s what I believe, I wear my bracelet around my wrist and remind myself to Watch For God.

God will show up; He always shows up.

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Newton, Connecticut

I’ve been speechless very few times in my life.

Yesterday’s news not only rendered me speechless, but made me feel sick, physically, mentally, emotionally.

Yesterday was like every other Friday here at the house of Big & Small.

Big was at school, Small and I went about our day.
We went to speech therapy. Then we went to gymnastics, where we had a ribbon ceremony since it was his last class. Then we came home and snuggled on the couch while watching some of our favourite shows.
Then we spent some time with my mom, abuela, before it was time to pick up Big from school.

Nothing out of the ordinary happened around here yesterday.

Sadly, there are families in Connecticut that cannot say the same.

Twenty children were killed at their school yesterday.

Twenty.

And there was more.

Six adults were also killed.

That’s twenty six.

Twenty six unsuspecting people lost their lives yesterday.
Their families are forever changed.

We are forever changed by this senseless tragedy.

an image that was circulating around yesterday.

an image that was circulating around yesterday.

What happened has now sparked debates of all kinds. Gun control. Mental health issues. To toy gun or not to toy gun. You name it. And there are some people who are making a lot of sense with their opinions and points of view.

However, now, right now, I am much too sad to weigh in on any of these issues.

I keep thinking back to yesterday, when nothing out of the ordinary was happening around here.
I keep thinking back to yesterday, when I stood outside Big’s school, Small at my side, and we patiently waited to see him run out of the school with no cares or worries.
I keep thinking back to yesterday, and I keep feeling humbled, grateful, blessed, to have be en able to say, “yesterday was just an ordinary day.”

For the town of Newton there was nothing ordinary about yesterday

My heart, my whole heart goes out to all the families involved in yesterday’s tragedy.

My prayers are for you all.

Move over Anakin, hello Legolas

We’ve been a Star Wars obsessed family for a couple of years now.

I’ve endured countless screenings of all six movies, clone wars marathons, endless Wii Star Wars battles, dreaded hours putting together battleships and re-enacting fights between the Jedi and the Sith. Not to mention a home based birthday party that included Jedi Training Certificates, Yoda Soda and Galactic Pizza. Against my will, I’ve become quite the Star Wars connoisseur.

All this, to say that Big has a new found interest that I’m welcoming with open arms.

As a huge fan of J.R.R. Tolkien, I’m happy to report that this is how we spent our afternoon.

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It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to, cry if I want to. Except I’m not. Crying, that is.

I love celebrating my birthday.
I don’t do anything wild and frivolous; I just enjoy knowing that it’s my day.

My friends got a dose of that on Facebook as I reminded them yesterday to wish me a happy birthday. And then this morning, I encouraged them to shower me with well wishes.

It was all in good fun and most played along quite nicely.

Thanks for that friends and family – you indulge me when I don’t deserve it.

I spent my day with friends, family, enjoyed a McDonalds lunch, a home cooked traditional Peruvian dinner served by my mama and overindulged in two cakes. Two!

As I look back on today, what stands out the most is how much I laughed and laughed. Actually, as I look back on most days, what stands out the most is just how much I laugh and laugh.

Sometimes I’m funny. I enjoy being funny. But most times, I just enjoy laughing and that skill has served me well. Kept me grounded. Kept me real. Kept me going.

I know I’m not supposed to tell you what my birthday wish was – but I’m not superstitious so here goes : I wished for more of the same. I want this life that I’ve been blessed with to just keep going. To continue to be surrounded by the amazing people that I get to call my family, my friends, my co workers.
I wished for more laughter. For more of this that I get to enjoy day in, day out.

Did I mention I got two cakes?

Overall, a fantastic way to enter into my twenty ninth year 😉

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